Whoa, haven't updated since almost a month, things have been pretty crazy for me.

I don't have much to study for the upcoming exams, just one paper for common test. Paying alot more attention to my studies as compared to last semester. Gonna make sure my GPA improves after this semester.. 

My dad's eyes' slowly recovering, but he's due for another operation soon, for his other eye. Really hope everything's gonna be alright with him..

I've been drifting from Chinkys, Charis and my secondary school friends. This time, I haven't been attending many BA events/signed up for most things. Been wanting to spend more time with my dear boy this month now that work isn't in the way anymore :) 

But honey, so much has happened these past few months. I know.

It is probably too much for you to handle, now that I've told you so much about my insecurities. My bad habits. You see, I am quite an inward person. I keep alot of things to myself, and I'm sorry for that. I'm learning to trust all over again. Give me time. You are always the first thought that comes to my mind when I think about my problems. The issue with me is that I can hardly voice my thoughts out, as much as I want to. It is as painful for me to hold it in, as it is to break it to you. But I'm learning to change for the better. 

I love it when you read my blog posts over and  over (not the 2009 ones though, stay away from those please)

I love it when you send me long texts

I love it when you smile

I love your little goatee

I love how you get annoyed when I spot your moles

I love it when we take pictures with matching faces, and others would say we look so alike

I love it when I go over to your place and talk to your family, wrestle with you, hold you, study with you

I love it when we go to toy shops and relieve our childhood, and also when I found Stanley the train and the closest you could find to my name was Emma

I love it when you try to sing along when we're listening to music

I love it when we just snuggle up and fall asleep 

I love it when you compliment me

I love your reaction to tickles

I love the look on your face when you try to think of smart comebacks

I love it when you go "hmmmph!"

I love how you crinkle your nose

I love it when you ask for my opinions, from hairstyles to clothes

I love it when you always share your music with me

I love it when you talk about lil Stan

I love it when we talk about our future together in general

I love it when we complain about our moms and they turn out to sound so alike

I love having meals with your family

I love it when you take me to meet your friends

I love it when you tell me about your cousins, your nephew or those little adventures you had as a kid

I love it when you take me to the arcade and I'm like no I don't wanna play and you're all, "oh come on!"

I love your confidence

I love it when you speak my thoughts, as though you know exactly what I am already gonna say

I love it when you go "aww"

I love how you're so good with cats though I don't exactly love cats

I love how you know my all favourite drinks, dessert, type of music, type of food

You see, there's just so much I love about you, all those were only a little part I can think off my head now. The list goes on and on. Don't doubt my feelings for you beebz. If anything, they are real,

And when we're having our rough nights, it pains me so much to know you're lost and confused, especially tonight.

There's alot I can't do right now, be there to comfort you. To call you up and talk to you like how you can. But this much I can do, to let you know.

You can never be replaced. I'll never leave you waiting.