C'est la vie.

#119. Ranty rantz

Thursday, May 30, 2013 | 10:01:00 AM | 0 comments| add a comment

It's been awhile.

Don't know why this semester I just feel immersed in holiday mood despite exams coming round the corner. Maybe I just haven't had my panic attacks lol usually by now I'd be studying and writing notes like crazy! Wa cannot la this semester.. If I don't start properly revising soon I'm gonna get the same kind of results from Sem 1. :'(

I've 3 examinable modules for common test and I have a total of about 14 chapters to cover. I just feel no sense of urgency yet and I'm just lying here on my bed, being kept awake by my thoughts..

Alot has changed so far, been meeting up with Sobna a few times, Amirul too! Can't wait to meet the rest of my sec schl clique again because we've so many memories to relieve.. I feel the most at ease when I'm with them cause they're the ones who know me and have seen me almost every day since 5 years ago. Our conversations are always filled with heartfelt laughter, no doubts, no second thoughts. Just really miss them. :(

It's been so long yet I can't seem to find my fit in school except for a few close ones. I think to myself what I'm doing with my life sometimes. Hahaha okay la shouldn't exaggerate but I feel as though everyone has someone else alwaaaays. I have Stanley (hey beebi if you're reading this luv you) but not a solid group of friends I can look back on and tell my grandchildren about. (Hahahaha only someone like me can think of something like that huh)

Beebi and I were at the library today and we were scrolling thru FB and talking about how things are so different right now, and I just looked through some of my old blogposts. I remember how going to school was a bore yet I wake up everyday feeling excited to get to see the people I love. :) When we meet up now, we talk about how we wouldn't go by a day without laughing till we cry, wouldn't leave anyone out. We told each other about things that traumatized us, future things that worried us and even stupid mindless things. Hahaha the young and immature me did alot of stupid things in lower sec, but I mean those are what contributes to the memories that last till now!

Sitting by lot1's car park basement thinking we're some badass bunch of girls, hanging around everywhere, skipping classes and carving stuff everywhere.

I remember there was once my teacher punished me and my friend for talking in class and we sat outside the classroom carving our names on the wall lololol

I remember my mom coming down to school to sign on parental slips so many times because I'm always late, caught for (very stupid and stringent) attire, coloured hair and piercings... It was all a phase and yes haha nothing to be proud of and I definitely grew out of it. There was once I was called to speak to the counsellor because my teacher thought I was going thru alot of distress when she saw scars on my wrists. It was just Fel and I thinking it was cool hahaha we still get teased till now! What in the world were we thinking, buying penknife together at popular, hiding in the disabled toilet till the cleaners had to chase us out. HAHA

I remember taking LOTS of pictures and going home just to painstakingly use Photoscape to edit them. I have TONS of neoprints at home still! We loved taking neoprints so much there was once we got scolded for going into the arcade in school uniform!

Oh speaking of arcade reminds me of lot1's theater and only God knows how many times my friends and I would finish watching everything available hahaha. So many memories.

There was always one person we loved to tease in class, one teacher that was annoying as hell, the assemblies that took forever to end, the love at first sights, the rule breaking, the stressful periods.

If you ask me about the most memorable thing about poly I will never forget, I will only tell you about the period of time I got to know my boyfriend and DPA times. The rest is actually pretty mundane.

It's funny because now I remember a few weeks after DPA some of my friends told me I was really active and cray cray so they were thinking "Damn we're in the same course as her" lol then they laughed and said it's just their first impression but I guess it did kinda make me draw back a little because at that instant I realise I can't expect different people to be like the people I was used to in secondary school.

Kinda stuck out like a sore thumb.

Well now look at everyone! We changed through the months, it's already been more than a year..

A year. I can't wait for time to pick up speed. :(

Long ranty post.

Some updates for real though:

x. I just had a few assessments over and done with and I'm really happy with how things are right now! :'D Everyone's happy working with each other and things are alot better than I thought they were! :)

x. Stan Beebi's parents are getting better from their injuries I suppose so it's another piece of good news! :)

x. I just signed up for an Australia study trip and I honestly wanna go so bad but I'm going to miss my family and my boyfriend (he's so silly for thinking that i'd meet 1D there and forget him hahaha BEEBZ LEGIT you're better than all 5 of them combined ;) trust me) for one long week! I hope the application goes through fine :D I'm not so good with letters but better with interviews.. Cross fingers! :)

Till next time x