February 28.

Hey there, here's a short update to sum up how February's been for me.

I really like February, bcos it just passes by so quickly, it really feels like it just comes and goes doesn't it? :) Short and sweet, 28 days. It felt like just yesterday I was with Beebz at Clarke Quay watching fireworks burst in the night sky of New Year's and tomorrow, it's gonna be already 

the 3rd/12months of 2013. 

Yeah, wow.

For Beebz and I, this has been a month when I really feel like somehow.. Through our arguments, through crying in the night fighting emotions, through sorting things out, through hearing what mean things (they probably didn't mean it) others has got to say and to finally have a closure of our communication issues.. (I hope..)

It's through all of that, that I feel that we've grown a little more and together as a couple.

Do you know how it feels like when you hold something, someone so dear close to your heart and suddenly in a few hours you start quarreling to the point you feel that you're slipping and you're goona lose it all? It wasn't easy, especially when I had no one to turn to and I felt reeeeeeeally stressed up and helpless, it really sucked. But we overcame that, and it's really nothing but just the sheer will of wanting to stay by each other and really, maintaining this relationship.. or maybe for us building one.. It just takes alot of time, patience and just two people who really wants to be together. After all of that, this may sound kinda stupid but I think it just makes me realise how much I need him, and how much I cannot bear to lose him and what I'd do to just see him smile his gorgeous smile once again. 

And I'm really glad we've got through it, bcos it just shows how strong we are. :)

Really now, I totally feel that it's okay for others to think that we're shaky. Because we are.

Beebz was right, there really isn't a point in worrying about what others say, bcos it's all about us in the end, how we feel for each other. How do we get anything solved if we're not ready to face our weaknesses first right? :D

This month, I also feel the love from my parents.. I've been studying hard for Finals and my mum's always trying to get me to sleep early and encouraging me in the little ways she does. Getting snacks (hahaha i typed that as "snakes" LOL) for me, making sure I put cream on my gross irritated skin around my neck and just taking time to chat with me despite working the whole day. :) I just realised one thing too.. SHE HAS TO GET ME TO SAY BYEBYE TO HER EVERYTIME BEFORE I LEAVE THE HOUSE HAHAHA. Like even before I put on my shoes. And she's mentioning Beebz more often right now which is a lovely thing to hearrrr :p

And for my dad.. He's just not acting himself lately sending me little encouragement notes on Whatsapp telling me he loves me, writing short notes for me to study hard when he leaves money for me in the night and slipping it between my laptop. It's just really nice to get that. :) Somehow it's our silent communication platform but just so good to know I don't really mind.. It'll be awkward if he actually says "I love you" LOL

For my friends and I, February has given me lots of chances to meet some of my old friends after the exams. :) I missed them so much and we all honestly wish we get to meet up more often. Beebz texted me saying he didn't feel that he's got any close friends in NP and really, I've to agree with him. I can't laugh and joke around with Chinkys as I do with my secondary school friends or with Charis or friends from Church. It's just.. I don't feel "at ease" with my feelings with them? Or like... Idk. Just.. Not the same. However, they are still the closest bunch I have in school, and they could be pretty fun to be with. :) It's just.. Some people's changed over time since DPA and some things just don't feel quite right. But I still love them all the same. Hahahaa.

All in all I'm just really looking forward to enjoying what's left of holidays and get what I've been wanting to do, DONE. First thing on my list is to do up my bedroom! :) I did a little researchhhh!

These are just a few ideas i found online that seems pretty feasible and fun to do! I really want beebz to come over and help me sometime! I'll try to work it out with my dad to ask Stan over hehehe I just can't wait for him to finally be able to come and feel at home. :D

Ok gotta go!

Till next time, x :)