Chinese New Year is usually an occasion for families to get together, visit relatives and just chill with our loved ones complete with festivities, angpow (whee $v$) and food! (mmmm :D) No doubt, it is *almost* the same for mine..

This year's CNY was mostly just spending time with my books (sigh) and new year goodies hehe.

Had steamboat and hotplate just like we do every year in saturday! Mmmm :)

On Sunday, my family and I headed to Church as usual... Y'know I think I'm closer to the folks at Church than my own relatives, hmm. I only see my relatives just once every year.. I know lots of people can relate to this and it sure isn't a good feeling. :( 

It's almost like a dream for me to be able to wake up one day and be like hey! Bam, just feel at ease with my aunts and uncles, cousins (who are all like at least 25+ years old..), or share endless topics with the only set of biological grandparents I've got. 

I'm really envious of those who are really close to their relatives and CNY always spells joy. Not that it isn't for me, but it's forever lacking of that something. I guess my family tree's just really complicated on my Mum's side plus it doesn't help that we don't see each other often (Oh they live almost on the other end of Singapore) and on my Dad's side, all my relatives are pretty old considering my Dad to be the youngest son. There's no one to talk to, and chinese new year topics are always the same, such as where I'm studying at, what's in for me in the future and all that.. 

I really dislike being judged by any of my relatives though.. I'm not trying to say that I'm the 'over-achiever' but I woke hard with studies because there is a prominent need to. My brother's got his autism and my sister's falling under the society's standards of education, it's pretty stressing to think about sometimes.. But knowing for a fact that my only biological set of grandparents left are so cold towards my Mum.. Maybe because she wasn't brought up by them..

Hmm.. In a nutshell.. I know for sure in the future, I'll always want to keep my children by me so they'll always feel loved and cared for. If I ever end up the the tourism industry, I'll still make time for them despite the odd working hours. It's not healthy to leave your own children in the care of another person's pair of hands. I know exactly how that is because I've built relationships with so many hired maids, and once they leave, boom, everything's gone. I'll ensure they'll get to enjoy their CNYs better than me. :)

WHOAAAAAAAAAAAAAA K that's alot of ranting, back to CNY!

Had really really good lunch at my Popo's! A few relatives came over and they're all so grown up and good looking now! :) Went over to Gu ma's place but the relatives there left abit earlier and we didn't go to my uncle's place cause my dad'd gotta go home rest his eyes after his operation. 

The next two days are just mugging days, all in all not a very interesting CNY this year huh! :( Even whilst visiting I was silently thinking in my head about how exams are coming coming coming raaaah! :(

I just want all of this to end quickly sooooooooooooo I can have all the time in the world and laze hehehe!

Till next time! x