#100. Misguided Ghosts//Paramore
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I'm going away for a while
But I'll be back, don't try and follow me
Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes
And run
From them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them, from them
With no conviction
Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me
And we just go in circles
Well now I'm told that this is life
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Would someone care to classify,
Our broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on
And run
To them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not, useless
We are just
Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one road
And we should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me
They echo me in circles
I used to listen to Paramore alot, when I was in secondary school. I feel sick to my stomach thinking about the kinds of music I used to listen to and losing my entire song list I used to have in the phone I lost at dance camp. :(
I remember someone telling me about the meaning behind the lyrics of this particular song once, and really... I like this softer side of Paramore's music. Well I did another research on this song's meaning again and I really found it really insightful. It really is just about life in general I guess.
"I'm going away for awhile, but I'll be back don't try and follow me",
When you're in the part of your life trying to find out who you are, you'd usually like to push people out of your life. In finding yourself, it could be in places good, or bad. "But it might not be here where I feel safe, we all learn to make mistakes.", That's why Hayley wrote wherever she ended up in could be far far away from those she grew up with/where she grew up in.
When she talks about mistakes, she's referring to running away from them and avoiding herself from making the same mistakes again as well as to start doing things to prevent herself from being hurt again. Then, developing into a private person, she'd start to keep to herself in fear of getting hurt. By shutting everyone else out, she's turning into "just one of those Ghosts" - as though she's even not there.
At "well, now I'm told that this is life" she finally realises there will be pain and hardship bcos that's just simply part and parcel of life. She could either dwell on it, "going around in circles" or find the happiness of life, "so we can get what I want out of it".
"Our broken hearts and some twisted minds", refers to how she's still on the fact that the world is full of people she can't learn to trust and she's yet to find someone to lean on. Yet, she realises that upon returning to the people she used to grow up with, "the ones we trusted the most, pushed us far away" they were all just like her; figuring themselves out, looking for someone to trust and a shoulder to cry on at the same time she was. By trusting people less and less and pushing them out of our lives, everyone tried pretending to be someone else in order to be liked, but "there is no one road".
"And they still echo me."
Although all of us are different people on different roads, we're all utimately still going through the same things.
Many times, I forget. It's really important to accept life as it is, and sometimes we go through certain experiences that beat us down. We think, God? If you're really up there, why won't you stop this? Why me? There is suffering in this world because of our free choice.
We choose not study, we fail a test. We choose not to take account for something; we face the music. We choose to get involved with the wrong company; we also get ourselves into the nonsense that comes together with mixing with the wrong peers. It's logical, anything has a cause and therefore a natural effect that comes along with it.
Sometimes we suffer because we make wrong decisions in our lives. Well, what about cancer or a terminal illness passed down from parent to child then? Or being born into a rapist dad's family? The child didn't have control, and he/she sure didn't do anything wrong to deserve being forfeited of a normal life, right? Isn't God all good and all powerful? Why is there an existence of poverty in this world, and why are the innocent victimised then?
But by taking on another perspective, we can see that hard times do pay off. I must admit, I learn best from experiencing crap in life first-hand. It challenges me, makes me think so hard, and I just eventually learn from it. Sometimes, i can even offer help to someone else experiencing the same thing. Hardship also brings out the good in people don't they? Feeling more compassionate to someone else losing a loved one going through the same cycle helps sooth and comfort the pain. The ability to emphatise comes in handy in many situations too. Being able to put ourselves into someone else's shoes makes us better friends or better spouses or lovers. Seeing devastated countries in need of help at times of poverty spurs us on to donate and provide assistance.
When we suffer and go through hardship, we also become stronger. After making it through all right through a difficult period, we often gain a sense of self-confidence and better understanding of ourselves don't we? Bcos I definitely do. When I'm going through a particularly bad time, I find myself even more affected by the simple joys in life. Having a friend close by I could halve my burdens with; the people that stood by me and never left, filling our lives with much richer emotion.
So you see, we can't just blame someone else when negativity hits us. Yes, negativity certainly exists, but look on the positive side of it. We can choose to brood over it, or learn from it. When I see other people's parents not treating their kids right, I tell myself I'd never want my own children to go through the same as those other kids did. How do I learn without seeing people suffer with my own eyes?
Imagine no one died due to excessive smoking, or no one had their thoughts disorientated by intoxicating themselves with alcohol, everyone knows where there alcohol tolerance is at, or no one was ever being judged by profanities people use so crudely, I wouldn't think it'd be anything wrong to smoke, drink or curse my life away. But no, everyone knows shit happens when you do all of those things because undeniably, people have suffered from it/from the effects of it.
Even the disabled can find happiness from simple things in life, we don't have to be showered with the riches of life to feel happy. Maybe we have a different take on what the "riches of life" are but I'll leave it to the individual to think about it. It's no one's fault, babies are born, and people die each day for a logical reason. To prevent overcrowding on earth or something like that, I don't know, it's just how the world works, isn't it? Good and bad things happen from time to time, we'd just have to take things in our stride, learn to face up and really just accept our fears and weaknesses.
And I know, many many many many times, I do forget too.
Now, I have learnt, and sometimes, there is alot of negativity I've to learn to let go of.
I think there are two extreme sides to me when it comes to expressing myself when I face a difficult period, it's either i choose not to, or when I do I really want to have all my thoughts and doubts to be answered immediately. I just can't stand my questions hanging in the empty air.
The one I'll first turn to each time understands me best, and my boyfriend, he knows who he is. :) I'm so thankful for having him in my life, and these few days I guess there's alot I've learnt about not over thinking. I'd think that it is somehow being "bothered" or "concerned" or "senstitive" or "expressing love" but I finally realised there's no point in worrying so much at all. It's classified - unneeded overthinking. It's tiresome, but useless. It's such a horrible habit and it's seemingly impossible to correct..
Yet I really have to realise not everyone has the same pov as I do. Instead of forcing people to look at how I see things, it's just alot easier for me to look at the pov of others.
So I guess now it's about me accepting and being the change.
I remember someone telling me about the meaning behind the lyrics of this particular song once, and really... I like this softer side of Paramore's music. Well I did another research on this song's meaning again and I really found it really insightful. It really is just about life in general I guess.
"I'm going away for awhile, but I'll be back don't try and follow me",
When you're in the part of your life trying to find out who you are, you'd usually like to push people out of your life. In finding yourself, it could be in places good, or bad. "But it might not be here where I feel safe, we all learn to make mistakes.", That's why Hayley wrote wherever she ended up in could be far far away from those she grew up with/where she grew up in.
When she talks about mistakes, she's referring to running away from them and avoiding herself from making the same mistakes again as well as to start doing things to prevent herself from being hurt again. Then, developing into a private person, she'd start to keep to herself in fear of getting hurt. By shutting everyone else out, she's turning into "just one of those Ghosts" - as though she's even not there.
At "well, now I'm told that this is life" she finally realises there will be pain and hardship bcos that's just simply part and parcel of life. She could either dwell on it, "going around in circles" or find the happiness of life, "so we can get what I want out of it".
"Our broken hearts and some twisted minds", refers to how she's still on the fact that the world is full of people she can't learn to trust and she's yet to find someone to lean on. Yet, she realises that upon returning to the people she used to grow up with, "the ones we trusted the most, pushed us far away" they were all just like her; figuring themselves out, looking for someone to trust and a shoulder to cry on at the same time she was. By trusting people less and less and pushing them out of our lives, everyone tried pretending to be someone else in order to be liked, but "there is no one road".
"And they still echo me."
Although all of us are different people on different roads, we're all utimately still going through the same things.
Many times, I forget. It's really important to accept life as it is, and sometimes we go through certain experiences that beat us down. We think, God? If you're really up there, why won't you stop this? Why me? There is suffering in this world because of our free choice.
We choose not study, we fail a test. We choose not to take account for something; we face the music. We choose to get involved with the wrong company; we also get ourselves into the nonsense that comes together with mixing with the wrong peers. It's logical, anything has a cause and therefore a natural effect that comes along with it.
Sometimes we suffer because we make wrong decisions in our lives. Well, what about cancer or a terminal illness passed down from parent to child then? Or being born into a rapist dad's family? The child didn't have control, and he/she sure didn't do anything wrong to deserve being forfeited of a normal life, right? Isn't God all good and all powerful? Why is there an existence of poverty in this world, and why are the innocent victimised then?
But by taking on another perspective, we can see that hard times do pay off. I must admit, I learn best from experiencing crap in life first-hand. It challenges me, makes me think so hard, and I just eventually learn from it. Sometimes, i can even offer help to someone else experiencing the same thing. Hardship also brings out the good in people don't they? Feeling more compassionate to someone else losing a loved one going through the same cycle helps sooth and comfort the pain. The ability to emphatise comes in handy in many situations too. Being able to put ourselves into someone else's shoes makes us better friends or better spouses or lovers. Seeing devastated countries in need of help at times of poverty spurs us on to donate and provide assistance.
When we suffer and go through hardship, we also become stronger. After making it through all right through a difficult period, we often gain a sense of self-confidence and better understanding of ourselves don't we? Bcos I definitely do. When I'm going through a particularly bad time, I find myself even more affected by the simple joys in life. Having a friend close by I could halve my burdens with; the people that stood by me and never left, filling our lives with much richer emotion.
So you see, we can't just blame someone else when negativity hits us. Yes, negativity certainly exists, but look on the positive side of it. We can choose to brood over it, or learn from it. When I see other people's parents not treating their kids right, I tell myself I'd never want my own children to go through the same as those other kids did. How do I learn without seeing people suffer with my own eyes?
Imagine no one died due to excessive smoking, or no one had their thoughts disorientated by intoxicating themselves with alcohol, everyone knows where there alcohol tolerance is at, or no one was ever being judged by profanities people use so crudely, I wouldn't think it'd be anything wrong to smoke, drink or curse my life away. But no, everyone knows shit happens when you do all of those things because undeniably, people have suffered from it/from the effects of it.
Even the disabled can find happiness from simple things in life, we don't have to be showered with the riches of life to feel happy. Maybe we have a different take on what the "riches of life" are but I'll leave it to the individual to think about it. It's no one's fault, babies are born, and people die each day for a logical reason. To prevent overcrowding on earth or something like that, I don't know, it's just how the world works, isn't it? Good and bad things happen from time to time, we'd just have to take things in our stride, learn to face up and really just accept our fears and weaknesses.
And I know, many many many many times, I do forget too.
Now, I have learnt, and sometimes, there is alot of negativity I've to learn to let go of.
I think there are two extreme sides to me when it comes to expressing myself when I face a difficult period, it's either i choose not to, or when I do I really want to have all my thoughts and doubts to be answered immediately. I just can't stand my questions hanging in the empty air.
The one I'll first turn to each time understands me best, and my boyfriend, he knows who he is. :) I'm so thankful for having him in my life, and these few days I guess there's alot I've learnt about not over thinking. I'd think that it is somehow being "bothered" or "concerned" or "senstitive" or "expressing love" but I finally realised there's no point in worrying so much at all. It's classified - unneeded overthinking. It's tiresome, but useless. It's such a horrible habit and it's seemingly impossible to correct..
Yet I really have to realise not everyone has the same pov as I do. Instead of forcing people to look at how I see things, it's just alot easier for me to look at the pov of others.
So I guess now it's about me accepting and being the change.
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Percussionist, Dancer.
29th September 1995.
23rd June marks a special date too.
The one I can't go a day without & the love of my life, xo Stanley ♥
Greenridge, 2008-2011.
TRM @ Ngee Ann, Batch of 2012.
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