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#98. The year changes, memories don't.
Friday, January 4, 2013 | 12:57:00 AM | 0 comments| add a comment
Leaving 2012 behind, like a flash that just came and went.
I know this is a little too late, but HAPPY 2013! :) We all survived the apocalypse. Phew right?
I guess the transition into the new year wasn't as exciting as it had been previous years/as I had expected it to be, but there's still alot to look forward to this year. I must say, thinking back on 2012, lots of drastic changes took place in my life.
Poly still feels the same, probably worse 'cause now loads and loads of projects and shit's been continually hurled at us. Who in the world planned the project schedule/deadlines!? How come they always seem to fall all on the same week! I'm barely feeling the joy of welcoming the new year now cause after attending barely a week of school I'm now trapped - again. Endless projects and endless assignments. Know what's the worst thing? Everything counts. Every little 30%, 10%, damn even 5% is getting everyone on their toes and stressed up 'cause in Poly, people around me are starting to feel the tension and the realisation that others' performance in their own business (schoolwork) has to do with our own. Bellcurve, GPA, social standing and exams are hitting us like a huge wave and we're all aimlessly thrown about trying to survive. It's really that competitive, I feel. Sigh yes, it's totally hunger games situation in there, goodness. -_-
Recently Beebz and I are starting to spend lots of time together and it's all good between us :) I really hated the times when we kept arguing over almost every other night and it drained us to the bones. :/ Spent lots of time during the holidays getting my plans and gifts for him ready! I really put in alot of effort, i even typed out a "Project Beebz" document and printed it out cause I needed to get my thoughts in order. Hahaha. Although the day itself didn't really go well, which was my main plan, and it kinda hurt when he said my plans were boring :/, but i guess it's fine as long as he enjoyed it the way he wanted to. I've no pictures to put up here to serve as memory 'cause he never bothered to take pictures of the gifts so and he wasn't exactly in the mood to take pictures on his birthday at all, so let's just leave it as it is!
No more surprises for our birthdays this year, we're planning it together. :)
I had wanted to go to EF camp with him but fate has it that he fell sick and got his throat inflammed, we didn't attend in the end. Not only was it 44bucks down the drain it was also potential memories we could've created there, PLUS I didn't give the support I should have to the organisers considering myself as a close friend of theirs I felt really bad.. I was worried sick after we got home at the crack of dawn the next day. Sigh I'm always worrying for this and worrying for that, when do I ever have nothing to worry about? :/ One night, I dreamt Beebz left, as in died. It was the worst dream ever, I woke up feeling so scared and honestly so, so traumatised. In my dreams, sometimes I meet my greatest fears without really having to go through it, I realised. I just want to appreciate him so much more, to leave no regrets. :)
Before 2012 ended, I just wanted to spend some time with some of these groups of people that made it whole.
Some of the youth at Church!
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These were the people who came and never left in my life.
I've had many different groups of friends, good company, bad company.
But they are really the ones who've always been with me whenever I need a good laugh
or to have heartfelt deep conversations with.
I thank God for them.
:)
Had my countdown with my dear honeypie! Met up at about 9pm, soooo.. We didn't do much cause it was raining and Beebz afraid of crowds! ._. Ended up watching Cz12 and spending the last 15 minutes of 2012 wandering around Clarke Quay area! I really really reallyreallyreally wanted to watch fireworks but when it was midnight, we could only hear the fireworks but not see 'em. :( I even loaded youtube HAHA. Just being silly with beebz. :) :)
Got my New Year's XOXO and WE MANAGED TO WATCH FIREWORKS TOO! HAHA, my New Year's made with ma bebe, hehehe! ^^
Went to find Stan's 2 budds and had supper before heading home. Thank goodness buses had extended service else I'd have to walk home! Hahaha some of my poor friends actually missed the last train, no bus service and no cabs around. They just sat by the roadside and waited. Guess I was fortunate enough. :D
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4th Jan:
Had such a long day in school, got to see Beebz for a little bit cause we were at the same lecture! :) Awesomeee start to my day already! Hehehe. How did those people who attend MIEC lecture at 9AM, at yellow sub LT survive every week! I told Beebz I'd probably miss like 7 out of 10 lectures lol. >:
HOM was pretty interesting, it ended early too! :D Cause everyone else was leaving to their secondary schools, I was left with Jiaen to wait for the TRM Open House briefing! She's had to tag along while I settled DPA and FMM stuff, so sorry! :( It was so late till both of us got to eat SOMETHING for the day. Both of us didn't have breakfast, poor girl started Bcomm lesson at 8am, gosh! :/
It was good eating, laughing and h2ht-ing with her! :) We actually ate so much we just couldn't laugh anymore... It was like carrying extra baggage around in our tummies hehehe! :p
My crick crick partner, HAHA. :D
We decided to have Sakae cause we were at Ourspace, super convenient and we felt like we could have eaten a cow at that point in time. Hehehe! Funny how we got there at like 2:55pm and buffet only starts at 3pm. THE 5 MINUTE WAIT FELT LIKE A YEEAAAAAAAAR.
Then attended the briefing for Open House which was delayed from 5 to 530 to 6 to 630 and it finally started at 645.
Only left school at 8.
And.
I boarded the wrong bus HOME.
I wasn't in a good mood already and i had to rush out some proposal thing for DPA stuff. GOSH. Next week's gonna be a long week with so many projects to settle. Now I feel the pain of having only 1 CT module. the rest of the weightage is projects projects and projects. Sighpie.
Someone save me. :/
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