My everyday scenario during unearthly hours in the night -_-

Application for 3rd lang closed two days ago and I won't be taking French 102. Guess I'm gonna focus on my studies this sem on. I really enjoy French but I need to pull my GPA up desperately sigh

Opened Taka with Raphael this morning and I was feeling so damn tired, really zombie mode.. I was waiting for him at this area where there were so many people smoking, oh gosh I really couldn't stand it.. :/

Opening was a lil rushed cus poor Raph had to go and borrow staff pass from other outlets cus someone took the other one. Quickly set up the counter while he transferred the Gelato from the fridge. 

I'm glad Kristian came cause the light wasn't working for awhile and we 3 started panicking cause the Taka management team sure come and give us a piece of his mind if the fridge lights don't work.. Then I thought mayble the bulb's just lose so i pushed the wires around and it turned on! Hahaha we hi^5ed feeling like geniuses!

Getting to know Raph's cool since we both can click quite easily.. We were talking about relationships cause he saw my handphone wallpaper hehh. He said Stan looked like a girl in that picture, loooooooool we need better pictures really..

Oh and we were just talking about me and then I asked him about his girlf, and he told me he's been a 3 year r/s once and now he's in a 2+ years r/s. I see he's a serious guy when it comes to relationships! Don't judge a book by its cover~ I really find it very admirable when guys can stay in relationships for long and don't treat it like a game. Hmm. 

He also told me to becareful because it's not easy for guys to quit bad habits, and they'd say anything to get a girl, I don't know. Stan's different, I trust him.

Funny how we were both saying we hate durian, and this couple came and they wanted to try the Durian flavour LOL OFCOURSE RAPH DID IT the gentlemen that he is LOL

Some couples really very open huh they kiss infront of our outlet like right infront not paisehhh, so awkward maaaaan :/ Like Plaza Sing, the travellators also 24/7 got couples making out for the world to see HAHAHAHA 

Gabriel came 2nd shift at about 4! I was feeling soooo sleepy by then I kept yawning till I was literally like bored/tired to tears :( Tried to keep myself distracted by talking to him, so he also found out that I'm with Stan, and he's shocked 'cause we didn't talk about r/s beforeee, only Envoys and school and GPA and all that stressful nonsense! 

He said my GPA is okay, can pull up, even said it's easy to pull up in order to try to sound convincing and to cheer me up hahaha but he said no it's difficult so I asked him how he did, he said 3.4 sem 1 and 2, 3.8+ the recent exam. IT'S ALR CONSIDERED VERY GOOD AND HE STILL SAY LOUSY WTS he don't even look like the study sort but gosh really uh today I learnt.. You can never judge a book by its cover.

Been thinking about us alot recently, because he asked me one night if I thought we'd last or not.

I'm not gonna lie, that question hit me.

The only thought in my mind at that time was if he's still willing to try, I won't give up.

It's like "hey give yourselves time, y'all only tgt for not even 3 months yet"

don't pressurise yourself so much

or

"whoa both of you almost three months already ah!"

I can honestly say I give my all when it comes to relationships.

Unless I truly know we can't go on anymore, like the previous few relationships.

After Bamazing8, after almost 3 months, 

things happened, maybe I fell harder for him,

maybe I feel we're becoming more distant.

I dare say I text Charis like ten times more than he texts me.

It bothers me, but I try to convince myself he's got other stuff to do, and not to over think.

I remember he said I was insensitive once,

So I try and give him his space whenever he seem to need it.

I know how some relationships end when one party start to lose interest, 

just cause they stop communicating as much,

or they suddenly feel themselves distancing so far apart they feel like friends

I don't need my guy to tell me how much he loves me every day every minute every second

I don't want to feel as though he just knows all the right buttons to push whenever he feels like it,

all i need is to feel deep down inside with the little things he does

'cause those matters most to me.

It may not be much, but in the first place I already didn't expect alot.

I'm cherishing you for as long as you're here!

Really hope this one lasts

Okay just felt like ranting a little because it's one of my more emotional nights again and I'm feeling so sleepy I shall go sleep now. :) 

Some guy from my secondary school suddenly fbed me asking about my relationship stuff, think he still thinks yh & I are still tgt. Why's he poking his nose into my biz haha so concerned, we're not even close. And it's like almost 2am now, I'm just gonna say that I'm sleeping soon.

Not gonna wait up for Beebz to reply already cause he's probably just asleep or doing his other stuff whatever it is *shrugz

GAH TIME TO SLEEP EYEBAGZ APPEARING LIKE GAINING 1000KG A DAY GRR

WHY WHY WHY

Kinda looking forward for next sem to start with new classmates and stuff to keep me busy but then again I want to slack more lol sigh 

I found "Bob", this notebook me & my ex used to have to write stuff in every now and then. I don't really know what to do with it, never got around throwing it away :/ No use raking up the past, I don't wanna keep it somewhere within sight either! I just put it away with the ring. Yonna the bear's too huge so I still sleep with it every night but it holds no special meaning anymore. It's a little dirty already cause it's gonna be 2 years old in 10 days time.

Hmmm.

As the days go by, the hols are shortening. I should do all the things I wanna do and enjoy myself before school starts!

OGGAY BUHBYE CHEEEEEERS :)

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