C'est la vie.

#77. Dead and gone

Monday, June 4, 2012 | 11:53:00 AM | 0 comments| add a comment

We can hate how things end when people stop caring, or we can love how things begin with new people who enter our lives.

Removed blogposts #56-63.

Church camp starts today and my parents and sis aren't gonna be home till saturday :( I wanna go soooo bad.. didn't go last year cus I had O's & I stayed home to study, and this year poly exam falls on the week of camp! Grr :( So the house is kinda empty now. Haha so not used to it.. I remember how in the past I used to cry when my parents left overseas (they travel ALOT) cus I was worried something would happen to them and they wont come back cus they're going so far away. Haha.. I just didn't like the thought of them being on planes :/ But when they call back and say they're okay then I'll feel soooo relieved haha. ofcourse I haven't told them any of this cus its.. just awkward LOL

Anyhoooo I've finished revising MAEC yesterday and today shall be dedicated to ITB for tmr's paper :) 2 more chapters for ITB and i'm gonna study for ITR! Barely started on that one yet :/ Luckily I started revision for ITB like a week ago ^^ I like studying econs cus I think it makes the most sense to me, it's alot like geog in secondary school. But idk me and geog, we have this love hate r/s cus even after feeling so confident for c.humans o's paper i still scored a shitty grade. -_- until today I have noooo idea why i scored that grade.. I still like geography though :) must have been social studies.. LOL chin chai

Oooh yesterday was a Sunday~ Went to church after not attending for 2 weeks, and it felt so good to be back there again. Syd's facing some problems with her r/s and I can totally understand what she's going through now. Hope everything's okay now.

Yesterday's sermon was kinda solemn cus the Preacher was talking about death. Like, death is unpredictable and anyone regardless of your age can go anytime. Some people write wills, some even plan their own funeral. He put forth a question and asked if we were all ready if one day we just vanish from the faces of earth, like get knocked down like the Ferrari car accident :/

It just so happened that earlier in the morning my dad sent me a text (he always does this when he wants to tell me something very awkward if said face to face lol ._.) saying that I should do this and that cos him and Mum wont be around forever and that I need to takecare of things around the house.. I really really hate it when my parents randomly say such things cus no matter how true it is, it's just too much to think about, life without my parents..Sometimes I just push the thought away and I don't wanna think about it..

Hmm I was also thinking yeah, I wonder how my funeral would be like (heh I rmb the joke during sec schl days how we said we wanted red carpet and disco music, and a tinge of fireworks? hahaha), how people would remember me as. And now I'm thinking, maybe people would come to my blog and read what I wrote just cos I died hahaha. Isn't it true how sometimes people get more recognised only when they die? Like Whitney Houston, Michael Jackson, famous painters and all that

And then again I was thinking it's better to die from an illness (or something whereby I know how long I have left tho it can be kinda depressing..) than in my sleep. Cus if I die in my sleep, I can't say bye to people and make things right and do all I want to do before I go. If I know how much time I have left then I can make the remaining time I have left worthwhile :)

Hahaha why are you talking about this, Edna you're not even 17 yet, but it's really true people die everyday and there isn't anything you can do about it once you're dead, the world just moves on..

OKAY JUST WANNA SHARE THOSE THOUGHTS HAHAHA Shall talk about happier stuffz now. :D It's the great singapore sale this month weeeeeeeeeeee!! Shopping!! Totally cannot wait till CTs end, gotta go for some shopping therapy from all the stress with the Chinkys! (hahaha actually its not so bad la O's is lots worse!) :P And the upcoming bbq with churchmates i can't wait can't wait can't waaaaaaaaait~ Kkz I should go back to studying for ITB nao. :)

Hahahaha and this is sooooo funny omgaaah me and my lame sense of humour.. :B

Cheers!

I found my motivation. :)