C'est la vie.

#50. Say okay, say alright. You break me into pieces.

Friday, October 7, 2011 | 4:25:00 PM | 0 comments| add a comment

"When you want a something, you beg for it, find all means and ways to get it. After obtaining it, you love it. But you grew sick of it gradually as time elapse. That's when you throw it aside and forget all the times when it made you happy. Eventually, you repeat the whole process again."

I really miss blogging. Wait till the com in my bedroom is set up/when I get a lappy I'm goona type type type away.

I'm so tired and let's just say that the big number TWENTY FOUR is coming real soon. Today's first period ahneh came again and I felt really motivated by his words. I couldn't comprehend the walls others setup against him. So what if he's paid to motivate us? Onus is on us to accept whatever's given for our benefit. one thing that hit me real hard out of alot of babbling (and spitting) he said, was that once its over its over. Its an opportunity to make it or break it, a once in a lifetime.

Sigh really hoping that I will do well. Ofcourse i mean who doesn't. One of the few things that drive me most is that I want to make my parents proud. Nevertheless, I want the satisfaction most of all. If others can do it so can I? I am in no way inferior than others, God gave everyone the same set of brains.

It is pretty stressful these days and just like what ahneh mentioned, "you won't be alone if the thought bugs you to just give up and go to sleep" I totally feel so relieved after hearing that cus whatever he mentioned totally passed thru my mind like ten zillion times every night. I tell myself that I'm not giving in my best if I can't get B for science. Alright. Enough of that.

Hahaha I have a confession to make, I am addicted to blogshops ._. the stuff they have to offer is seriously so mind boggling that once you start of with a site you'll be jumping sites for like HOURS. I know, bad time of the year. He he the prices thou'.. *smirks* they are awe-o-someeee.

One thing that hit me today, I'm actually quite a loner in school -_- *LOL major no ego muchhh?* no but seriously. Sometimes I feel that I can't really rely on anyone to h2h with, maybe sometimes other than Yonghong. Don't really have that kind of closeclosecloseeee everynight-on-the-phone h2ht till the cows go home kinda Girlfriends this year. And the last year too for that matter. THATS PRETTY SAD. It's not that I have no friends, I do but sometimes there's just this barrier. Or maybe i'm hyper sensitive & I don't share stuff with them often. Idk, simple things like walking, talking. Maybe because my friends that I mostly hangout with are non Chinese. So they'd sometimes talk in their language and suddenly I'd be left out, at the side guessing along~ haha but I'm not complaining anyhoo. They are pretty awesome. But y'know that left out feeling occasionally can be pretty hurting :"(

Oh and graduation day is coming this Friday. I am pretty regretful *woebegone face* that my secondary school life isn't rockin' awesome all the time, though there were many laughters shared, tears shed, pitfalls met, I matured and grew in Greenridge. I guess pretty soon it will be goodbye and I'll be on to met the next phase of my life. Really eggcited but still feel a tinge of longing to remain here. I will miss all my friends and the same four walls and boring uniform we have TI put on everyday. Hopefully we can take lots of pictures on that day! Put olevels to the back of our minds FIRST. :) I'll be back~

CHEERS :D